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Last updated in April. So, what has happened?

5 things that happened since my last blog entry:

1. submitted my salticidae thesis on the second last day before the dateline
2. went to loads of conferences…
3. 21st june - was commissioned as acting sub-leftenant or "leftenan muda"
4. 21st june - instead of saying "happy anniversary,syg",  he thought it was nicer to say "i’m letting you go"
5. Learned that learning to forgive and forget could make you go half crazy.

Ahh, well.. Life’s like that. You win some, lose some. But there’s always the sunny side up to a situation to make up for the burnt sides and bottom, and that makes your fried eggs delicious. Speaking of which, I’m going downstairs for breakfast. Currently at my roomie’s house. She’s still snoozing and chokey (her brother) has been trying to get her off the sleeping beauty territory since the last hour. Holidays are just nice for sleeping in. Aite, I’m off. Will write a bit more from home later. Tata.

I’m off for an escapade. My thesis should be done by the time i get back. Not my real self at the moment. Disappointed with too many expectations. Wish he would understand, but apparently he doesn’t. I’ll just have to take this pile of worries somewhere else.Bubbye.

I’m piled down with work! It’s so devastating the way i just feel like i won’t be able to get them all done in such a short time. Huarghhhh!!!!

I’m 22. Been so for the past week. Can anybody explain what i’m trying to do with my life?

Yeah. It’s true. After 17 years of warm weather i finally get the chance to relive my childhood memories of shivering in the cold winter.

On assignment of representing my uni in the visit to London. We’ve got a lot of programmes lined up for us but i still manage to squeeze in some time to have some fun.

Catch up with u guys later. i gotta look at my subjects for next sem. toodles!

It’s 2.15 am, local time. I’m at the study room at block B, taking a break from reading about lake resoration in preparation for my applied phycology coming Monday. At 8.30 am!!! Can you believe that? Here i am with my disrupted circaadian cycle (up by night, sleep by day) and i’m supposed to be up by 7 on Monday. Huhu. Shouldn’t be all that bad, once i’ve perfected my art of sleep-talking, maybe i’ll work on sleep-writing next. Study week has been stressful, quite nerve-wrecking at times, with interchangeable periods of stomach ache and rapid ADD. I could be quite irritable at times, i guess i should be thankful for the people who could bear being within my sight for the past few days. A horrific experience, maybe, ask them how they reacted towards the revelation of Raihana: Agitated Mode. It’s been dificult, but thanks to a few friends with their sense of humor still intact, i’ve still got my sanity in check. Studying at the "bilik study" is kinda fun at times, with Afiq, Melo, Soo Han, Shi Han, Hui Fen and Hui Ying making life bearable with their antics. There’s always something or someone to laugh at (behind their backs, of course), to lessen the tension building up in the air (and in our minds, surely). Teasing Afiq at his attempt to learn a few mandarin words ( be it naughty words that your mother won’t approve of) and ganging up against him with Soo Han has been a nice game to relieve the boredom. But I guess it wasn’t that much fun for him though. Me and Soo Han were always good at being bullies. I guess we downplayed our bullying a bit nowadays since there’s less than 48 hours til we get our butts into the exam hall. More serious, but still trying to squeeze in some humour once in a while. I’ve still got a few pass-year questions to answer, i’m craving for my mom’s "kurma ayam" and "sambal belacan" with "ikan sepat kering" since Thursday. I made that "kempunan" fact known to my dad but mom didn’t have the time to cook before she came for a visit last Thursday evening. Anyhow, my dad’s coming by tomorrow when he’s got a meeting down here so I guess I’ll get my "kurma ayam" soon enough then. (Abah must’ve talked Mama into cooking to quench my longing). You just have to want something bad enough, sooner or later you’ll get it. I hope the same goes for my exam papers. I want A’s for all of them!!! PUHLEEEZE!!!! (although i do have this feeling that i’m not wanting them bad enough as my craving for my mom’s "kurma ayam". Huhu..) Anyway, I’d like to take this chance to say thanks to everyone who have been nice to me when my agitated, fidgety, tummy-upset, irritable self took over when i got really stressed and worried. Thanks to afiq, the professional abducter who has managed to kidnap me from my desk and returning me with a little less frown on my face (yeah, stardust was the best medicine for a tummy-ache). Thanks to Mama and Abah for visiting and reassuring me that things will always turn out for the better as long as I believed in myself and keep on praying hard. Thanks to Aiman for managing to coax some money out of my wallet and into the cash register at Kenny Rogers (always do enjoy your company, no matter how broke you are, dear brother). Thanks to Az for letting me go crazy after 2 hours of influx of Happy Tree friends. Thanks to Aimi and Ainor for those nice back massage when i got those back pains. Thanks to Wan for letting me crash in her room when there’s water shortage at my college. Thanks to everyone who have helped me feel so loved and cared for. And knowing that, i believe, is much more important than knowing wether or not if Scenedesmus would be able to replace the conventional protein in pig feed. Hehe

They say seek and ye shall find, but in my case i guess its keep you wondering long enough only then I’ll care to enlighten.

1. Why have I stayed silent for the past 3 months or so?

It’s not the matter of creative juices not flowing, it’s simply due to the fact that it doesn’t flow through an electronic depiction of a journal. I thought of a lot of things to write about, but wasn’t keen enough on staying locked on to the screen and waiting for several attempts of publishing my entries ending with "page cannot be displayed"

2. Why are there no new pictures on my profile?

This does not mean that i have suddenly developed a phobia for cameras or that i’m less of a narcissist than I should be. It’s just that I don’t bother to bring a camera along for any event I’m involved with. My latest satisfaction lies in filling up other people’s memory card with stored electronic images of me and my grin. And I just couldn’t be bothered to transfer those files to be uploaded on friendster.

There. I guess those are the two most pressing reasons for my inability to fulfil my duty as a dedicated blogger for the past three months. But don’t worry, with the additional AP installed in my college, I’ll be blogging more avidly soon enough. Till then for now. tata!

Hahah. Raihana not blogging for quite some time. Goes to show how occupied i am nowadays.

Current activities?

1. Classes

2. Labs

3. Theatre ( Yep, joining a production and learning a lot)

4. Project ( On spiders. Anybody with info on Salticidae  puhleeze alert me)

5. PALAPES ( I’m in a parade this coming saturday!!!)

6. Family ( My cousin’s getting married tomorrow, i’m going to her wedding on Sunday. Plus i’m visiting my sis whom i’ve not met for the past 3 months. Wonder why i’m missing that creep so much.)

Aite, that’s all for now. To my friends who have missed me, I’m sorry there’s not much of me to go around. Huhu. Buhbye.

Hello. Just so you know, i’m doing fine. I’ll be out of this place in another 8 days so you can expect me to write another entry after that. What i’m doing right now is called "menjadi kuli bergaji". Haha. Will be back later with more news, thoughts n stories. To those of you who have been really understanding and supportive throughout my whole month of PALAPES activities, thanks a lot. I miss u guys n will be counting the hours til we meet up again. Love and peace.